listening to justin timberlake's 'Cry Me a River'...
The end of the year is always a period of conflicting emotions.
There's so much festive cheer and celebrations going on.
You get surrounded by friends, family, colleagues, even strangers, till it feels claustrophobic.
You push your way through endless crowds when you're out shopping for presents.
You reserve seats at restaurants that are usually empty, to be guaranteed a table.
Your mobile beeps non-stop with all the forwarded well-wishes from people you know and people you hardly know.
Yet at some point, the feeling of desolation surfaces out of the blue, and snuffs out the happy sparks.
It can happen anywhere.
In the malls, in the office, in the dance club with its flashing strobes...
Thrown amidst the masses, yet so isolated from them all.
Funny how a particular line from sec school literature lessons suddenly comes to mind.
"Hot ice, wondrous snow"(Midsummer's, if I recall correctly).
An oxymoron, like what Ms Yee had explained.
Is 'crowded solitude' an apt description? I can't think of anything else.
Doubt I'm making sense.
Except to people who understand what I'm talking about.
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listening to james blunt's 'You're Beautiful'...
This song again.
It was at its air-play peak when we were still fine.
Everytime I thought of him, it seemed that the radio would be blasting this tune.
Not good, if you pay attention to the ominous lyrics. Was a lil apprehensive and worried actually.
'But it's time to face the truth. I will never be with you.'
Damn. Why did the song had to turn out to be right? Sigh.
2 comments:
and we all thought you were so over him alrdy.
i am. more or less.
song triggered thoughts.
it's kinda like seeing the scar on face then remembering the huge zit that sat on top of ur nose.
something like that.
less affection for the zit, of course.
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