Sleepless in Singapore

listening to alanis' 'Ironic'...

WARNING:
Confusion ahead. I have no idea what this post is about. A GP tutor would probably fail me for not organising my thoughts and ideas. That's too bad. This is my blog, not an essay.

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4am on a Monday morning
Returned from the airport after sending my baby bro off. It's impossible to sleep and wake up in 1.5 hours time. Painting nails in wee hours of morning is almost surreal. Blogging with only one hand though, is a pain.

Halloween tonight should be fun, especially when everyone's decided to dress up.
The status count as of Monday morning, is as follow:
3 Dim Sum dollies
1 Char Siew Bun (to match the dolls, but subjected to changes)
1 Lara Croft
1 Vampire
1 Marilyn Monroe
1 Flapper (not the dolphin!)
3 undecided characters (I suggested they could go as Powerpuff gals)

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And it was Saturday
Tired.
Had been running errands, getting stuck in traffic jams, checking out Halloween costumes and hitting the beach...
To packing more than one major activity a day kills this set of brittle bones.

I like dogs, when they're not too noisy and they're not mine.
Wonder if I'll have the same mentality towards kids. Nonetheless, I love my two godsons.
The way Jen and Willie handle Kopi the dog is pretty admirable.
I can almost imagine them as parents.

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Then there was Friday
I didn't go for the Juice party. Thank you Seb for offering to bring me in anyway.
So after an extremely long meeting and a hilarious mixed-up car chase, which led me round the island, I was pretty much bushed.
Ended up chilling out with the friends and sipping Arabic almond milk tea at Samar.

The day would have finished perfectly if not for the sms.
Damn. I was almost near closure.
At least now I know he knows I know.
I love sounding cryptic.
Don't know how things will continue from here.

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Back to Saturday
Forced Wei to sit by the beach and listen to me whine after dinner.
I'm angry because I'd been a stupid monkey on strings.
I'm upset because things turned out all wrong.
Talking about it helps coz it rationalizes and puts things in a clearer perspective.
Sorta.

It's scary how the bond between people change that suddenly.
We hadn't mentioned anything, but we knew it was different.
The tones we take, the words we use... everything's not the same anymore.
Faster than milk souring into curds, or wine turning into acid.
Stupid analogy but point taken.

You're friends, then you're not.
You're probably more than friends, then you're not.
Then you're possibly not even friends.

Wei asked if such a friend was worth keeping.
When brain is functioning, "No. Don't need a friend like that. I've got more than enough friends to last me two lifetimes."
When brain is semi-comatose, "No, but..."
According to Wei, the days of semi-comatose state will lessen.
Cliché but true, you forget a lot of things with time.

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Forwarding to Sunday
Woke up early to celebrate my baby bro's birthday. It seemed like yesterday when he was just learning how to walk! And now he's got enough candles on the cake to spread the spittle when blowing them out!

Was doing some work when I received SL's email via Friendster.
Missed my dear friend and it made my day to hear from her.
Off to Paris for the weekend. Lucky gal!
Forgot her email add, thus resorted to using the site to grab hold of her.
Had this urge to write her a testimonial to thank her as a great friend.

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Monday morning 445am
'New Friendster message from SL'.

On the topic of FSter.
I'm fascinated by people with hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of friends.
Do they actually know everyone???
When it just started, it was kinda interesting to see who you know and add them to your list.
Wow... so many friends! FSter guru! Duhhh... *roll eyes*
The novelty's worn off for me and nowadays, I don't bother to log on, unless I've got mail or friends adding me. Then I'll add a bit of fluff eg. pictures to mine.

I'm too lazy to check out people's profiles or networks.
The 'who's viewed me' additional function didn't bother me.
So what if we have common friends?
I've already searched and added people who are important to me eons back.
Sorry if it sounds offensive, but that's my true sentiments.

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Five minutes ago
I just happened to flip through Sunday's papers, these Winnie the Pooh quotes caught my eye:

"You can't stay in your corner of the Forest waiting for others to come to you. You have to go to them sometimes."
"If there ever comes a day when we can't be together keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever."
Wise nuggets from a character whom I always thought as cute but feeble-minded.

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Life is interesting at 5am in the morning. I'm off to work soon.